The New Year
Some people think that what you do on New Year's Day will set the tone of what the new year will bring. If that is so, then 2009 will be the most social year to date for me. Expect laughter, quality family and friend time, laughter, new growth and adventures, and a little bit of the same old tug of disappointment.
The girls came over on New Year's Eve. I decided it would be easier if we had pizza, instead of my original plated meal idea. I bought way too much alcohol, but we made use of it. We played Taboo, and now I must own this game. We watched Get Smart, and we all enjoyed it. We spent the night talking and laughing until we couldn't keep our eyes open any longer. Two gals spent the night, and then we went out for breakfast the next morning. Breakfast at Perkin's has such a familiar comfort to it. Hmm...
Lunch was spent with my family. My niece and nephew are such joy to be around. Children always make me smile, and laugh.
Then the evening found me talking with people I would never have thought to talk to. I was afraid of feeling alone, and "in the wrong place". Thank goodness for familiar faces, and good conversations. I feel I faced a fear, and am glad I ventured forth. I am also quite surprised at my initiating a conversation with someone I have never liked. What's gotten into me this strange new year? Is this growth?
I am still excited about the prospect of being an artist. I look forward to getting my hands dirty. My friends have given me more encouragement, and I thank them. I have the itch to draw and to make cards. I can't wait to start. If I could scan pictures into a computer, I would post them here. Alas, we must wait until I make that hefty purchase.
Disappointment is... knowing you are not important to the one you deem "all-important"...
Disappointment is... feeling hope is non-existent... unreachable.
Disappointment is... receiving the expected, when you hope for the unexpected.
Disappointment is... not having achieved your goal.
Disappointment is... noticing a pair of pants feeling tighter than usual.
Disappointment is... not having enough time.
Disappointment is... not being understood... or being misunderstood.
Disappointment is... not knowing how not to be disappointed.
I know what disappointment is... I want this year to teach me what happiness is.
The girls came over on New Year's Eve. I decided it would be easier if we had pizza, instead of my original plated meal idea. I bought way too much alcohol, but we made use of it. We played Taboo, and now I must own this game. We watched Get Smart, and we all enjoyed it. We spent the night talking and laughing until we couldn't keep our eyes open any longer. Two gals spent the night, and then we went out for breakfast the next morning. Breakfast at Perkin's has such a familiar comfort to it. Hmm...
Lunch was spent with my family. My niece and nephew are such joy to be around. Children always make me smile, and laugh.
Then the evening found me talking with people I would never have thought to talk to. I was afraid of feeling alone, and "in the wrong place". Thank goodness for familiar faces, and good conversations. I feel I faced a fear, and am glad I ventured forth. I am also quite surprised at my initiating a conversation with someone I have never liked. What's gotten into me this strange new year? Is this growth?
I am still excited about the prospect of being an artist. I look forward to getting my hands dirty. My friends have given me more encouragement, and I thank them. I have the itch to draw and to make cards. I can't wait to start. If I could scan pictures into a computer, I would post them here. Alas, we must wait until I make that hefty purchase.
Disappointment is... knowing you are not important to the one you deem "all-important"...
Disappointment is... feeling hope is non-existent... unreachable.
Disappointment is... receiving the expected, when you hope for the unexpected.
Disappointment is... not having achieved your goal.
Disappointment is... noticing a pair of pants feeling tighter than usual.
Disappointment is... not having enough time.
Disappointment is... not being understood... or being misunderstood.
Disappointment is... not knowing how not to be disappointed.
I know what disappointment is... I want this year to teach me what happiness is.
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